I Farmed Beside Dad for 22 Years, but He Left All 400 Acres to My Brother Then Planting Season Exposed What the Will Couldn’t

“Because that’s his signature,” I said. “He’s three weeks in the ground. He can’t tell me what he meant. I’m not going to stand up in a courtroom and argue with a man who can’t answer back. Not him.”

She looked at me for a long time.

Then she reached up and pulled my coat collar up against the wind. That’s what she does when she’s lost an argument and loves me anyway.

Phil came out the street door behind us.

He stood on the sidewalk with his glasses still in his hand.

“Wade.”

I waited.

“I never asked him for this. I want you to know that. I didn’t know a thing about it till Don called me.”

“I know you didn’t.”

“I don’t know what he was thinking.”

“I don’t either.”

He opened his mouth to say something else. I could see it was something hard. And I watched him decide not to say it.

He nodded once and walked to his car.

I let him go.

I’ve thought about that moment a good deal since. If either one of us had said one more sentence on that sidewalk, we’d have saved ourselves four months.

But we were Albert Kucera’s sons, both of us. And Albert’s sons did not say the extra sentence.

I drove out to the home place that afternoon to get what was mine.

The truck was sitting in the north bay of the machine shed. Right where Dad backed it in on the evening of February second, after he fed the calves.

He died the next night. In his recliner, with the cattle market report on the TV. I found him in the morning, when he didn’t come out to the lots.

So the truck was parked the way he parked it. Nosed out. Wheels straight.

It was white once. Thirty winters had turned it to chalk. The doors still had the ghost of a seed dealer’s name where a decal had peeled off years ago. It had the 466 diesel, a five-speed with a two-speed axle, and a mixer box on the back. There was a dent in the discharge chute from a morning in 2003 when Dad caught the corner of a feed bunk and said a word my mother made him apologize to the dog for.

I climbed up and sat behind the wheel.

His chore gloves were on the dash.

Yellow leather gone brown. Laid one on top of the other. And curled. Curled into exactly the shape of his hands holding a steering wheel.

I sat there and looked at those gloves until the windshield fogged up.

There was a seed corn cap on the passenger side of the bench seat. A pair of fencing pliers on the floor. The cab smelled like ground corn and diesel and peppermints. He kept peppermints in his shirt pocket to hide the fact that he still chewed tobacco after the doctor told him to quit.
The truck was plugged in, so it started on the first try.

I unplugged it. I coiled the cord on the hook the way he did.

And I drove it eleven miles home at forty-five miles an hour, with the heater roaring and my father’s gloves riding on the dash in front of me.

I didn’t move them.

I haven’t moved them yet.

Theresa and I live on seven acres on the Elba road. A house, a barn, and two lots we bought the year we got married.

I parked the truck beside the barn.

She came out in her coat and stood looking at it.

“Well,” she said. “It’s paid for.”

“It’s the only thing out there that is, probably.”

I meant it as a joke.

I didn’t know yet that I’d just said my father’s exact sentence.

The harder part came the next morning.

I had forty cows of my own. I’d built that herd from six bred heifers Dad sold me at cost when I was twenty-nine. They’d always run on his creek pasture in the summer and his cornstalks in the winter. That was the deal between us. I drew a wage. I ran my cows on his grass. And I never once asked to see the books.

Now it was Phil’s grass. Phil’s stalks.

I hooked up the stock trailer and started hauling my cows home. Eight at a time.

It was the middle of calving season. You do not move cows in the middle of calving unless you absolutely have to.

Phil drove out from Omaha that Saturday and found me loading the fourth trip.

He stood at the lot gate in a brand-new canvas coat.

“You don’t have to do this. Leave them where they are.”

“They’re not yours to feed, Phil.”

“I’m not asking you to pay.”

“I know you’re not. That’s the trouble with it.”

He put both his hands on the top rail of the gate. He has our mother’s hands. Long in the fingers.

“What are you going to do for grass?”

“Rent some.”

“Wade.”

“I’ll rent some.”

I latched the trailer gate and drove out past him.

In the mirror, he was still standing at the rail. Behind him was the house. And in the kitchen window was the yellow curtain our mother hung in 1988.

I rented a half section of hill pasture north of Elba from a widow named Mrs. Nielsen. I’d helped her husband work calves for years before he passed.

Sixty-five dollars a pair, per month, for five months. Thirteen thousand dollars.

I shook her hand at her kitchen table. She made me take home a loaf of rye bread.

“Your dad was hard,” she said. “But he was honest.”

“Yes ma’am,” I said. “He was both.”
Then I drove to the co-op and asked Jeff, the manager, if he could use a man through the spring.

Jeff has known me since Little League. He looked at me across the counter and didn’t ask one single question. I’ll remember him for that.

“You still got your commercial license?”

“From when I hauled cattle for the Larsens.”

“Twenty-three an hour. I need a tender driver for the dry spreaders, and somebody who can run the feed mill when Kim’s out. You start Monday.”

So that’s how a man who’d farmed four hundred acres beside his father for twenty-two years ended up hauling other men’s fertilizer to other men’s fields.

I fed my own forty cows morning and night out of the feed truck, in the lot behind our barn. Ground hay and a little distillers grain. It was way more truck than forty cows needed.

Every morning at five-thirty, I climbed up into that cab in the dark. And the gloves were there on the dash.

And I said good morning to them. Like a fool.

Then I waited for planting.

I should explain that part. Because Theresa asked me about it more than once.

“Call him,” she said, around the tenth of April. We were at supper. “Tell him you’ll put the crop in. He’d pay you. He’d be glad to.”

“He knows my number.”

“That’s pride.”

“Some of it is.”

“What’s the rest?”

I set down my fork.

“If I call him and offer, then I’m the hired man asking for work on my own father’s place. I planted that pivot twenty-two springs in a row. I’m not going to beg to plant it the twenty-third. If he wants me, all he has to do is ask. One sentence. I’d be in the field by dark.”

She didn’t say anything to that.

She got up and cut me a second piece of pie. That was her way of saying she thought I was wrong, and she was going to let me find it out myself.

The ground under that pivot is a silt loam that warms up slow. Dad never put a seed in it until the soil was fifty degrees at four inches deep, at seven in the morning, three days running. He kept a soil thermometer on a nail in the shop just for that.

He kept everything else in a little green pocket notebook. Planter settings. Seed population. Which nozzle package was on the pivot. How the well was pumping. Which tower liked to stick.

The soil hit fifty the last week of April.

Butch Sedlacek, who farms the section just east of Dad’s, had his planter rolling on the twenty-eighth. I know because I filled his dry spreader that week.

He climbed down out of his tractor while I was running the auger and stood next to the tender with his thumbs hooked in his bib pockets.

Butch is seventy-three. He and Dad shared a fence line for forty-six years. And they argued across it for all forty-six.

“Anybody in your dad’s fields?” he asked.

“Not that I’ve seen.”

“You going to be?”

“Haven’t been asked.”

Butch looked at me. He has a way of looking at you that feels like being weighed on the scale at the elevator.

“Two of a kind,” he said. Then he shook his head. “No. Three of a kind. Him and the both of you.”

He spat in the dirt.

“It’s a wonder anything ever got said in that house.”
Then I drove to the co-op and asked Jeff, the manager, if he could use a man through the spring.

Jeff has known me since Little League. He looked at me across the counter and didn’t ask one single question. I’ll remember him for that.

“You still got your commercial license?”

“From when I hauled cattle for the Larsens.”

“Twenty-three an hour. I need a tender driver for the dry spreaders, and somebody who can run the feed mill when Kim’s out. You start Monday.”

So that’s how a man who’d farmed four hundred acres beside his father for twenty-two years ended up hauling other men’s fertilizer to other men’s fields.

I fed my own forty cows morning and night out of the feed truck, in the lot behind our barn. Ground hay and a little distillers grain. It was way more truck than forty cows needed.

Every morning at five-thirty, I climbed up into that cab in the dark. And the gloves were there on the dash.

And I said good morning to them. Like a fool.

Then I waited for planting.

I should explain that part. Because Theresa asked me about it more than once.

“Call him,” she said, around the tenth of April. We were at supper. “Tell him you’ll put the crop in. He’d pay you. He’d be glad to.”

“He knows my number.”

“That’s pride.”

“Some of it is.”

“What’s the rest?”

I set down my fork.

“If I call him and offer, then I’m the hired man asking for work on my own father’s place. I planted that pivot twenty-two springs in a row. I’m not going to beg to plant it the twenty-third. If he wants me, all he has to do is ask. One sentence. I’d be in the field by dark.”

She didn’t say anything to that.

She got up and cut me a second piece of pie. That was her way of saying she thought I was wrong, and she was going to let me find it out myself.

The ground under that pivot is a silt loam that warms up slow. Dad never put a seed in it until the soil was fifty degrees at four inches deep, at seven in the morning, three days running. He kept a soil thermometer on a nail in the shop just for that.

He kept everything else in a little green pocket notebook. Planter settings. Seed population. Which nozzle package was on the pivot. How the well was pumping. Which tower liked to stick.

The soil hit fifty the last week of April.

Butch Sedlacek, who farms the section just east of Dad’s, had his planter rolling on the twenty-eighth. I know because I filled his dry spreader that week.

He climbed down out of his tractor while I was running the auger and stood next to the tender with his thumbs hooked in his bib pockets.

Butch is seventy-three. He and Dad shared a fence line for forty-six years. And they argued across it for all forty-six.

“Anybody in your dad’s fields?” he asked.

“Not that I’ve seen.”

“You going to be?”

“Haven’t been asked.”

Butch looked at me. He has a way of looking at you that feels like being weighed on the scale at the elevator.

“Two of a kind,” he said. Then he shook his head. “No. Three of a kind. Him and the both of you.”

He spat in the dirt.

“It’s a wonder anything ever got said in that house.”

I wasn’t there for what happened next… Continue Part 3